#forTHEMbecauseofHER

Her birthday is coming. .. She should be 8. This should be a celebration. She loved her birthday. I loved her birthday.

But now I am dreading it. Terribly. No balloons to blow up.. no birthday chair to decorate.. no candles to blow out. . No presents.

She loved getting cousin phone calls to be sung happy birthday. It was really that simple to make her happy.
She loved getting phone calls to be sung happy birthday. It was really that simple to make her happy.
.. year after year.. that simple. But no singing this year.
.. year after year.. that simple. But no singing this year.

No joy. No happy..

But she deserves more that that. She is worth celebrating.

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Only 6 years we got with her. A friend recently emailed me. About preparing for her soon to be 8 year olds birthday. We went to this girls 6th birthday party shortly before Jennifer was diagnosed. Our friend stumbled across the wrapping paper she had used for a game at that party.. And she was hit.. a rake to the face moment. That damn wrapping paper is still here.. but my dauhter isn’t.

And its not ok. Its not fair.

I don’t get to celebrate with her.. never again in this lifetime of mine. My surviving kids lose out on our favorite birthday tradition.. Staying up late to decorate the house for each other the night before their birthday.

We all are missing out.

But she deserves better. Just 6 years we got. Every single one worth celebrating..

2 years old. A quarter of her life. We take pictures in Daddy's favorite jersey every year.
2 years old. A quarter of her life. We take pictures in Daddy’s favorite jersey every year.

So we will. This month we start a strong effort “For THEM because of HER.”  I can’t celebrate with her.. But I can honor her with my survivng kids. So I will and I would be honored if you joined me.

She should be 8. So I commit to 8 days.. 8 moments.. 8 times I will do for THEM because of HER.  I will get out the paints and let them paint their faces.

8 times sissy..8 times i promise you.. 

It’s the only shot I have of making it through the upcoming months.

She truly was filled up by bringing joy to other people.. It was a piece of what made her shine.. her ability to bring out the sparkle in other people.

Its the only gift I can give her. To have her help me still.. help me be a better mommy to them. She loved to make her little brothers and baby sister smile. Nothing in life made her happier. I can give her.. give them all that.

They get to decorate their own cakes.. but she let him help because it made him happy
They get to decorate their own cakes.. but she let him help because it made him happy

I owe her that. I owe them that. .. maybe .. maybe I even owe me that too. Because   I fought so hard to get to her.. to be a mommy. ..maybe even I deserve it too.

for them jennifer lynn.

i will.

for them

because of

you. you.

you.

DSC_0410 (1)..until there is a cure..

 

15 Responses to “#forTHEMbecauseofHER”

  1. I commit to this too. ♡ For THEM because of HER. She will be honored. Always. We love you Jennifer. Love 4 JLK ♡

  2. 8 times I commit to do something for my daughter because of JLK. She is going to be jumping in heaven with glee…this is such a special, wonderful way to honor her birthday, Libby. She is absolutely going to love this. Jennifer is always on my mind, but especially so this time of year.

  3. Absolutely. I commit. Thank you both Libby & Jennifer for making US better because of her. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

  4. Libby – I don’t know you and I didn’t know your beautiful daughter, but it is because of her that I’m fluttering this year. I had set a goal for myself to give back in some way to children or animals two things I’m passionate about and to help make a difference in some small way. Shortly after setting this goal, I saw a friends FB post saying she was fluttered. It grabbed my attention so much so I had to know more, thus I visited the website. That’s when your baby girl touched my heart. Reading her/your families story and watching the video’s I knew this was my way to give back to children. I attended the Mama’s Night Out to learn more and ordered my October Fluttering Kit. What a beautiful thing you (and all the other supporters) are doing in her honor. I feel blessed to be a part of it! I will also do my 8 for them because of her.
    With Love,
    Candace

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