A year ago people woke up to this posting. .. This picture still makes me my hands and feet go dumb when I look at it. ..It makes the blood pound in my ears. ..
Yesterday 7 children died from cancer.
Today 7 children will die from cancer.
My daughter is one of them.
She gifted me her first and her last breath. . .
and so many beautiful ones in between.
Everybody that loves Jennifer has different “last perfect days” But a year ago was mine. 2/12/14.
I know that’s hard to understand. But February 12th was the last day I held my daughter. It was the last time I felt her heartbeat under my hand. And those hours leading up to her death were beyond words.
The connection I felt with her was the deepest most fulfilling relationship I have experienced. .. And then there was the fullness in that room that is indescribable. But something I want to never forget.. yet somehow can’t remember either. It was that powerful.
That’s part of what this picture does for me.. reminds me of all parts of that day. But the 12th .. this 12th. THE 12th. Isn’t that scary for me. I am shocked honestly. Because every month the 12th has been a difficult day for me. .. I assumed this one would be too. But its somehow different.
Right now what makes me clench inside and tears immediately come is the thought of tackling the 13th. That day. February 13th 2014 is the worst day of my life.. the worst I hope I will ever have to endure. The first without her. And I dread it again.
The beginning of this new forever.. of the rest of my life.
I am scared. Incredibly scared.
But first I will tackle tomorrow.
Oh what a difference a year makes.. for me.. for us. And for far too many others.
a year ago 7 children died from cancer..
she was one of them.
Since then 2,555 others have joined her.
A year ago 7 children died from cancer
i am so sorry you were one of them.
…until there is a cure..