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Last night was good for me.

It was completely gutting.

I woke up with eyes swollen and heavy. .. but that was so much better than the weight I had been carrying around inside of me.

Tony came in the door after I was done writing.. and I dissolved into his arms. I was so grateful for that moment.  So thankful for my best friend.

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Tonight I remembered that Jonathan doesn’t have that anymore. His best friend is gone.. After bed he came toddling out to us and asked Daddy to sleep in our bed.. why?

Because Jennifer did.

We talked more about it and decided he wouldn’t, but that we would plan it for another night. What is he thinking and feeling that would make that come up for him? I will go to him tonight after I finish writing. And I will pray that I never ever have a reason for him to sleep in our bed … I fight to unravel cancer to help strengthen that prayer.

We did our final fluttering tonight. Tomorrow night is my friends night since we are gone til way late for support group. She will be fluttering Jonathan’s preschool. Both boys keep waiting to get fluttered I think they think it happens to everybody! So I thought this would be a great surprise for them when we drop him off on Wednesday.

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The campaign is almost over. I am so amazed at how well it went. So much money has been raised.. and we still need to get a lot of checks mailed in and accounted for! But really the most impressive thing is how many people really jumped in, made it their own and enjoyed it. It feels really good. After releasing to the depths I did yesterday.. a lot can feel good.

.. good.

The definition of that is forever changed..

good4My gym raised $2100 this weekend for Unravel. And the rummage sale raised $6400. Both fundraisers I good3am proud of because I think they also gave back .. through keeping bodies healthy or giving great deals to people who needed a great deal. Private fundraisers also hit huge milestones this weekend..

My favorite fundraising moment this weekend though was one of Jennifer’s very best friends standing outside the rummage sale with a table full of perfect sand dollars he combed the beach for. . with the intent of selling them to make money for Unravel. He made nearly 50.00! I am so proud of this little boy.

I don’t even know what I am saying right now. .. but just like I feel that sad that I need to release,  tonight I feel a lot of this new good.. and I wanted to share it.

It all started because of you my brown eyes beauty.

You changed my definition of good by coming into our lives..

and again by leaving it.

 

good7…until there is a cure…

 

14 Responses to “good”

  1. I still hate that there is a need for the nonprofit. I love that it is doing great things and that the glitter squad is doing so much. I wore my Unravel shirt to my daughter’s dentist appointment yesterday, and her dentist asked me about it. I shared some information (he is a pediatric dentist and had not heard of DIPG, had no idea of the stats, and had no idea of the lack of funding). He said he donates to Lucille Packard regularly, since his friend’s daughter died of cancer there, but that maybe he needed to donate to Unravel, too!

    Jennifer is inspiring so many to do good. She was sent for a purprose. Her purpose is being fulfilled. It still sucks, but there is a glimmer of good.

  2. You are doing amazing. Together we can make a huge change. We love you! We love Jennifer so very much! Until there is a cure. LOVE 4 JLK ♡ FOREVER 6 ♡

  3. Libby,

    You are an amazing Mother and Jennifer would be so proud. God Bless you and your family. You make the world a better place one flutter at a time.

    Love,

    Jan

  4. Libby – again you are so amazing. I’m happy for your release and feeling so good. You’ve accomplished so much in such a short period of time. Thank you for spreading the glitter and continuing to inspire all of us. Until there is a cure.

    Jennifer<3
    XO

  5. Dear Libby…
    There will never be an end to Flittering and Fluttering. Michele and I will continue the fight for your family and for Forever 6 Jennifer Lynn Kranz. We thank your sister, Anne, for being our catalyst in bringing Jennifer and all of you into our lives and making us aware of the great need to unravel. With continued love and prayers.
    …until there is a cure…

  6. All for you, Jennifer. Spreading the glitter you left with your Momma and Daddy. Use this for your good and we will be the squad sharing, spreading, and dusting the world with the light that you brought into it. ……Until there is a cure……

  7. The sand dollars were a hit! That little boy did such a fantastic job, and he shared his favorite memories about Jennifer with some folks. It truly was precious to see, and watching his spread the word about the cause. I feel privileged that he told me some of his favorite times with Jennifer, and that he misses her “everyday and hour”

  8. Libby- I am so proud to spread the awareness and to be part of the flutter…You and your family are part of my daily prayers! I pray for angel signs each and every day!

  9. So full of love for you all, and so blessed to be a small part of the flutter campaign. At the Giants game on Saturday, we were visited by both a pure white butterfly and the biggest dragonfly I’ve ever seen! JLK is all around us, all the time.

  10. So glad to hear that this moments can penetrate and lift the sadness, even just for a moment. There is good in the world…it’s just hard to see it sometimes. I love the sand dollar boy.

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