Fluttering means to me…

I am thinking about the fluttering fundraiser a lot lately. Read about it here. I am feel like its such a perfect representation of what we want Unravel to do/be. It raises awareness and funds and its something kids can help with.

My personal goal is to do it 25 out of 30 days.. I know me.. I know our lives and I am sure there will be days I can’t do the moving and new set up. So if thats a concern for you too.. Just know, if you do 25 different houses over the month (and they all choose to give you a address to send the dragonflies for the 25.00 donation) then you have the capability to make a 625 .00 donation at the end of the month to Unravel, specifically to Jennifer’s fund at Stanford and the drs that have her tumor. And you will have raised awareness about pediatric cancer facts to 25 homes!!!

This isn’t about Jennifer though.. its about all kids that have, will have or have had cancer. So we are giving people the option to use a paragraph about Jennifer or add in one of their own.. for the reason/child that made them want to get involved. We want this to be a fundraiser that works for people.. so if you miss a night or do it at lunch time instead of evening thats totally ok!

That said..

I still cannot believe the connection with dragonflies and death.. short lives.. going from nymph to dragonfly, how they fly above where they used to live.. Β The most striking to me of all the signs I was just starting to notice at this time

**her nursery waiting for her**
**her nursery waiting for her**

 

 

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She would have loved this. So much. My Jennifer LOVED a secret. I remember at the clinic visits with my sister.. Auntie and her would have all kinds of little secrets .. even a whopper about asking Daddy to ok her getting pink carpeting… (he did!) .. It might her eyes come alive and sparkle. Sometimes at dinner she would just stand up and whisper in all of our ears.. each of us getting a different secret.. or rather trying to.. her hot breath would usually make us laugh to hard to hear her.

I had forgotten that memory from our dinners as a complete family.. for me personally this whole fundraiser is worth it for reclaiming that memory.

IMG_0075She would have loved sneaking up and planting some dragonflies on peoples lawns and then tip toeing away. I can just imagine grabbing her hand in mine and running back to the car holding in our giggles. She for sure would have asked to take a “selfie” with me…

And she would have felt good about doing something to help other people. She was always so much better about that then me. We would have tried to guess what the people that live in the house would say when they opened the door. .. We would have created memories together.

So I will trade off days/nights doing this with my boys… It will be different with them.. but my biggest hope is that I teach them they can be involved in causes that speak to them in all sorts of ways… donating money or time or energy.. And all things are valuable. I want them to take home that lesson that even though we were helpless in saving her from cancer we are not helpless in the fight to cure it.

They can.. even at 2 and 4 do something about it.

Jonathan will likely be very serious about making sure each dragonfly is in the perfect spot.. and I bet Nicholas will want me to carry him running to the car bouncing him all around. . .

I will do, like I wrote about here…something for them and with them .. because of her.

I will make memories with my boys while carrying memories of my daughter.

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22 Responses to “Fluttering means to me…”

  1. I love this! I too think I will do this with my Kids to make memories together. Doing something for them because of Jennifer. #love4jlk

  2. This is such an amazing idea!!! Great way to raise money…to raise awareness…..to make memories with our kids. I just love everything about it. I;m promoting the heck out of this awareness! So much love4jlk Until there is a cure.

  3. I kinda want to flutter my entire neighbourhood one night! It would be so awesome to see every lawn covered in dragonflies!

  4. I can’t wait to to flutter my neighborhood and my mom’s neighborhood, it’s going to be great. Great idea Libby..

  5. I love that the new memories being made with the little ones are made ” because” of Jennifer. You are my hero Libby! I love this.

  6. I will glitter and flutter! Jennifer, I’ll tiptoe to beach house and create a surprise for them to see when they wake.

  7. I will glitter and flutter! Jennifer, I’ll tiptoe to each house and create a surprise for them to see when they wake.

  8. I can’t wait to begin fluttering. For Jennifer, for every child. We love all 6 of you. β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘β™‘

  9. So far I have 24 friends that are going to flutter with me. I hope to double this amount by the time we start!!!!

  10. Gives me the chills! From her nursery to the meaning and what dragonflies are all about. …I can’t stop crying. . I will be fluttering with all 7 of my kids! I will use it as one on one time-so that i can get that important time with them and teach them about how we are helping make a difference and all in the memory of a little precious angel, Jennifer! !!

  11. Libby, there’s a 5 year old little boy who is diagnosed with DIPG, if you google him, his family says “all he wants for his birthday is a box full of birthday cards” his name is Danny Nickerson and his birthday is on July 25. If you would like, you can send him a card to
    Danny Nickerson
    P.O. Box 212
    Foxborough, MA 02035
    That might be a good feeling for you and your family since you share that connection with him. Still praying for you and all of the children with cancer. It just breaks my heart

  12. Very cool idea <3 I don't always comment, but I'm still here reading and praying and wearing my #love4jlk stuff!

    You are still an amazing woman Libby – please don't ever doubt that.

  13. Oh I see that you shared, I just followed your Facebook page right now. Jennifer is the one who raised my awareness about childhood cancer, now I look into other stories and want raise awareness too. In Jennifer’s name πŸ™‚

  14. One of the reasons I love reading your posts…I am participating in flutter, and not once did I think about getting my boys involved. But what an idea! This is completely something they can do and be proud of doing! They know Jennifer, sadly only through pictures, but I know they will be proud in helping her and other children. I am even more excited about this awareness campaign because of that. Thank you for always being a constant reminder of what a great mommy does. XO

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