9/11

Last night I saw a friends FB post about how her world changed the next morning 13 years ago.. At first I just figured she was married or had a child then. It was only at the end that I realized what the post was actually about.

I have always been so proud to be American.. Talked to my kids about what sept 11 means for our country..But this year I almost missed it.

I was shocked.. who have I become.. Sept 11… all it meant to me was the day before another 12th.  I have become so selfish.. its embarrassing… but also I know there isn’t a whole lot I can do about it. I am still struggling to adjust to this new life.

And I can’t help but remember how we are a country banded together when we were attacked on our own soil. How incredible it was to be a part of.. how in our deepest pain still reeling from our wound we rallied together.. emotionally and physically. Standing up and saying not here, not us.

I remember that and because I am selfish I hope so desperately that is the what will happen again when people start learning the facts about pediatric cancer like I recently have. That there is a brutal killer on the loose and we have the capability to do something about it. To stand up together and demand a change.

I wish I could say what I did last year.. that I can’t even begin to imagine the way the families feel that lost somebody they love on this day 13 years ago. .. But since I can’t say that I will say I am so sorry… and I will look to you for inspiration and hope that one day I will really breath again.

ballou

…until there is a cure..

 

11 Responses to “9/11”

  1. Sometimes it is okay to forget, just for a bit. I think often about the juxtaposition between 9/11 and my brother’s death. How he was still alive but never knew about what happened. For me, the not telling him, was a real signal that his time to leave us was very near.

    And now, dealing with a child with special needs, I often get ingrained in what is going on right here right now. I know that feeling of being shocked that other things are happening in the world. Or remembering that I used to care passionately about so many things: global warming, gay rights, etc. And I still care about those things, but my brain can only hold so much. I can only advocate for so much at once. Gradually, I’m making room to let these things back in but somedays it is okay to just hold what in your head and heart so you can make it through the day. The enormity of it all can be overwhelming.

    Love to you.

  2. All my love to you and your family. You are such an inspiration to me. We live you all so much. Today (September 12th) I will honor Jennifer. Especially today iwill remember her and think of her even more. Today, i will say her name even more. Sending all the love and prayers i can possibly give to you today and every single day. LOVE4JLK♡ FOREVER6

  3. Libby, You are far from selfish. In fact you are one of the most selfless people I know. February 12th is your September 11th and you have taken that darkest day for you and have been fighting so that others may be spared their own personal 9/11 one day. I don’t know if it is the weather lately or what but I have seen dragon flies everywhere. Immediately I think of Jennifer. I just know that she is so proud of you for all that you have done. If the world was even a fraction as selfless, determined and loving as you, September 11th would have been just another day. For JLK, we will never forget!

  4. 13 yrs ago 9/11 was devastating but, yesterday’s 9/11 I became a cancer mom… Libby I stumbled across your blog 7 days before your baby was called home… I’ve been completely consumed with heart ache, prayers and just the simply fact that my life has been altered by you and your family. My favorite songs are all the ones that I learned of through following your blog…..but, still I didn’t understand the draw to you….until now… Your bravery & strength will be my how my journey is made….. I’M AM A CANCER MOM until there’s a cure. …

  5. I have been reading your story…Jennifer’s story the last few days. It has captured my heart. Maybe because I have a 6 year old little girl. Maybe because I have a seven week old daughter who was diagnosed with Down syndrome. Or maybe just because. I can’t imagine what you are facing. Everyday. I am a stranger, but I love your family. I am praying for you. I am holding my daughters even closer for you. I hope you will find some peace or something. Until you hold your beautiful girl again. Thank you for writing. Thank you for teaching me to slow down and hold my own close. We don’t know if we have a tkmorrow. My tiny babys life is uncertain. I don’t know what challenges she will face. I do know I will love her everyday with everything in me. And I will think of you.

  6. you get a pass on this one, wholeheartedly.

    and I’m sorry to see another sad anniversary, seven months now.

    look at what you’ve accomplished only seven months out: $50K to researchers through this month’s fluttering push, and also the $83K through the Jennifer Kranz Research Fund. YOU DID THAT. You.

    Cure: we see you and we’re coming after you.

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