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Tomorrow (well technically today) we go back to the cemetery.

Tonight I watch videos of her…and I miss her…

beyond words…

glitter shoot

team Jennifer

 

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    1. Also still here, and still praying. I too have watched those videos and cried. Fly high sweet angel, and all my love to the Kranz family here on Earth left missing you.

  1. I have started writing and then errased a response to this short yet most heartfelt blog about 10 times. I cannot find words good enough worth replying but I just need you to know I am listening….and so so sorry….

  2. I rarely comment on your posts because I feel like “who am I?” I always want to show my love and support just like everyone else but feel so helpless. I just wanted to tell you tonight that I truly believe God w

  3. I rarely comment on your posts because I feel like “who am I?” I always want to show my love and support just like everyone else but feel so helpless. I just wanted to tell you tonight that I truly believe God will get you through this. Please don’t lose your faith in Him. He has a plan and we may never understand and it may never be the plan we want but we need to trust Him although we will probably never know “why”. Of course this is so easy for someone like me to say because” who am I?” I truly have no idea what you are going through. But I have faith and trust in the Lord for your family and his plan for all 6 of you I hope you do too.

  4. I read every blog…and I am here praying…and thinking (I too have four children-two girls and two boys)…and wondering just exactly how I can get involved in childhood cancer research? I’m in Atlanta and I am going to come up with SOMETHING! Help…your story touches my heart to the very core of my being…and there are so many stories that are similar to yours…;(

    1. Start local! I did a google search and found my city has a foundation that helps families that have to travel for treatment (nearest hospital is about 60 miles away). They do an annual spaghetti dinner and I volunteered for it this year. Donate if you can. Write to your Congressional representative. We can, as Libby says, pull the thread!

  5. Like others Libby, I am still here.

    “You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.”

    ― Anne Lamott

  6. Libby I want you to know I manage a page: We are all in this together on facebook. I am fighting for Jennifer. I have stopped mincing my words and being polite because let’s face it that has done nothing. Here is the link: https://www.facebook.com/WeAreAllInThisTogether2013?fref=ts

    I am one manager of many so when you see things like:

    Still waiting on people to wake the fuck up and do something about the kids dieing from cancer. Apparently saving kids is not as important as talk about how Obama is a shit head… Waiting on people to wake up to a real problem is very discouraging.

    That’s me. I will continue to leave posts like this. Know that we are all in this together and we are behind and beside you as you fight through your grief and look for some sense of normalcy in your life.

  7. Libby, just a quick note to tell you that you have inspired me and a lot of people to act! I will continue to honor your sweet Jennifer and help fight to find a cure. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

  8. That glitter shoot was such an inspirational and happy moment in time. I know none of those pictures or videos can replace the ache in your heart but I hope they remind you of how much she loves all of you still. Praying for all of you and here to listen, send love and support.

    Vanessa

  9. Love the glitter shoot- love Jennifer. I do question how god could take someone so special away and maybe she was just too special. I personally love watching her sing baby mine to Charlotte. My 18 month boys stop in their tracks once she starts singing. I try to tell them it’s angel Jennifer- and my little crazies, in that moment, really stop and get lovey. Libby my heart breaks for you, but I’m not going anywhere. We are all rallying to help spread the word about pediatric cancer research. We are all rallying around the kranz family.

  10. Hi Libby,
    I have watched that glitter shoot many times and gain inspiration to continue the fight for a cure and to hold my family even closer. But, I really need to know how you got all that glitter out of your hair?

  11. In the spirit of sweet Jennifer, I send prayers and live to you and your family. May the bravery shown by your daughter be your….be brave!

  12. Your daughter Jennifer reminds me of my daughter – age, looks everything. Just wanted to let you know that she will continue to inspire me to action – even as a child your Jennifer has left a mark on this world in a big way and will always stay in my heart as a catalyst to do more to advance pediatric cancer research and outcomes. Sending you support from New York City.

  13. Beautiful video of sweet JLK… Forever 6 and forever Brave. Every single time I hear this song I think of you Libby. I can’t help but picture Jennifer and her glitter shoot and sing along for all the braveness your sweet girl showed us. Many hugs and prayers to you.

  14. I love the glitter video . . . Adam & Andrew enjoyed it too. They both talked about how much her family must miss her . . .

  15. I do not know you personally, nor do I know this family, but i stumbled across this story. Perhaps you can connect. I imagine connecting with people who are walking a similar story could bring great comfort.

    bensauer.blogspot.com

    I have followed your blog. It is heartbreaking, and yet a reminder of how each day is a gift. I find myself fighting living the mundane of raising three children. Every day is the same, yet I am reminded every day is a gift. Your daughter is beautiful. Precious beyond words. No one should ever have to go through this… I cannot even imagine. There has to be more to life as we constantly yearn for more…surely death is not the end.

  16. I have been following your blog for quite sometime and I too, like so many others, have no words. I just wanted to know that your story is humbling and although I am mostly silent on your site, my prayers for you and your family are not. God Bless and thank you for sharing your story.

  17. Remember. we are still here… listening, grieving and holding you and your family in our hearts…forever and always.

  18. I read your blog daily. You sharing your journey inspires so many things that impact Jennifer’s sweet legacy. Thank you for sharing it with so many people like me, ones you have never met, yet people like me who are deeply touched by your experience.

  19. I read your blog everyday.I look for it.I want to come up with some miraculous words to bring you peace and comfort but you know,there are none.Time has to take care of that.

    I cannot imagine your pain or what your days must be like.I re-watched all the videos.Beautiful child.

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.Everyday.

  20. Beautiful videos, Libby. Joy and pain all mixed together. I’ve never laughed & cried at the same time like that before. What a mix if emotions, to say the least. I’m sure that click click click of the roller coaster continues. Don’t think too far down the road. Today is enough.
    You’re in my thoughts.

  21. I was going to tell you about my depths… but when I was writing my last sentence the screen blipped and erased the who missive of five paragraphs. I’m thinking God had a reason, it was raw emotion as I went pretty deep into grief. So, I will just remind you that there is light again, you will transform, you will go on and learn how to live again with only her memory….. we parents of angels, Do.

  22. I love the glitter video it is precious beyond words glad you have that to look back on such a perfect moment in time.The news story is hard to watch cause I remember so well all those feelings and how families have so much hope at the beginning of the journey but then we are let down.I’m sure that you felt the same way I did no matter what anybody told me I truly had so much faith that if I prayed hard enough asked enough that my daughter was going to be okay.I am so glad that you have videos and precious memories but its not the memories we want.I understand.Continued prayers.

  23. I can not watch the glitter video at this point, I literally fall apart I’m so broken hearted. And the other video , the seconds of her eating her ice cream cone , it just kicks me in the gut. The sadness is so intense . A friend and colleague lost her little (she was 8) girl almost 4 years ago this April. It was sudden and unexpected. Everyone grieves differently and I am passing this info as an observation on something to think about. She carries a little bit of her ashes in her pendant. She touches while stressed, happy or busy at work. She caresses while on the phone or speaking to a patient. It’s with her 24/7. You can tuck in a bit of clothing or some of that glitter from the shoot or some ashes. Whatever you choose. I found this place evrmemories.com something to think about.

  24. Thank you for sharing those two videos. I loved watching your joy and love together. And the boys. I couldn’t choose a picture I liked better. I would see one and say that’s my favorite and then another would come and take it’s place. I couldn’t sleep last night so I laid in bed sending up prayers to God for you.

  25. I just re-watched the video too and at this moment, I am overcome with heartache for you. As the video started, I could not smile wider – Jennifer’s smile and joy are infectious. She is so precious and what a delight to watch her explore being allowed to play and toss glitter! How fun that day must have been, and I’m happy that your faithful friend created that moment for you to cherish. Especially now. Because it even steals my breath to realize as the video ends that this is all you have now. I am so very sorry. I wish I had more dynamic words. More profound comfort. I wish you didn’t have to endure this.

    When my daughter was 6, she had to undergo a sedated MRI b/c she was experiencing migraines. Even though they didn’t directly say it at the time, I know her doctor was looking for a brain tumor. We were so lucky that one was not found. But your beautiful daughter and your story is a reminder to me – everyday – how easily it could have been my family’s story too. That is why your story speaks so closely to my heart.

    As long as you’re willing to share your journey with us, I am willing to walk it with you. Because it so easily could be any one of us needing the same support. Help in bearing the crushing burden. You will not break. We will not allow that to happen. So much love and prayers being sent to you…the fight goes on.

  26. Like everyone here, mousing around on a corner of your grief, I’ve fantasized about being able to ease the pain. I’ve imagined us collectively lifting it off you, or each of us taking on one day of your agony. How many days without grief would that make, I wonder?

    But then I think, no, you probably wouldn’t want your longing for her to be gone.

    So, I have nothing. But I want to say that although I probably wont’t comment often, I am still here. Still listening, still beyond sad (still choking up if I hear Brave or Elsa’s Let it Go), still thinking of you all throughout the day, and still ready to spring into action when you are.

    I hope today is a beautiful day.

  27. I wish that by reading this I could take away just an ounce of your pain and hold it for a while. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know you, but I want you to know I love you, and I love your family. And though I never met her, I love Jennifer. She is so beautiful. <3

  28. As I sit here and read this my heart breaks for you. So many emotions that are appropriate and your emotions will be a roller coaster for a while I am sure. I sit here today and so sad for another mother that lost her daughter too. Amber died sometime between last night and today and I can see another mother that is hurting so bad. Maddie Higgins mom is still hurting and I see her posts up and still an emotional situation at her house. My heart hurts that in such a short time three precious lives were taken by the monster and that is what I will always call it because it has no mercy. I hate “CANCER”. My father died of lung cancer and I never forget him struggling for breath, not eating and turning into a 90lb skeleton. I watched him die slowly for 11 months and no matter how hard he fought there was no mercy. Not that I am comparing you loosing a 6 year old to a 70 year old but I understand your anger and pain. Bitterness becomes a part of your life and you dont want to hear people tell you that she is in a better place or that she is not suffering. No matter how true it is you dont give a SHIT she needs to be here growing up and enjoy her precious life. I can tell you that in time and I mean in time the pain will be less and each day gets a little easier but not now and not real soon. I guess today was an emotional day also for me. When I read that Amber had died it just hit me because we are still morning the death of your sweet Jennifer and although I never met you or your family I feel like you are part of my family. Libby my prayers are that soon the day will come and it will be less painful and things will get easier. You have 3 more precious babies there with you and your life will go on. Jennifer is there in each of them and through them you will experience her. I have probably sounded like I am rambling but today has been a hard day for me because its just not fair for these precious children to be taken from their families one by one. Prayers coming your way. Love you Libby and praying for you.

  29. Every time my daughter and I hear “I want to see you be Brave” we think about Jennifer. My daughter talks about Jennifer often, though we’ve never known her, her name, her memory is so strong in my five year old’s heart. You shared your daughter with us, and through your story, through your daughter, we learn and are learning about life and love.

  30. Big hugs for you Libby.. Were all here for you.. Your presious Angel is watching over you now and she will forever live through you and never be forgotten.. Your Glitter team is forever..

  31. Glitter video is such a beautiful testament between the two of you, your mother daughter bond. I am glad that you have that video.

  32. Oh Libby – I just wanted to leave a note so that you know that we’re all still here, loving you, supporting you, praying for you. Neither you, nor Jennifer, nor the rest of your sweet family has sunken into memory.

    Sending love, light, and prayers to all of you each and every day.

  33. Libby. I just want to give us huge hug. I’m sorry for the pain that you and your family have to endure. The videos made me cry. Stay strong sweetheart.

  34. Still coming here. Still reading every word. Trying to somehow send you all the support and love I can. I am so sorry.
    Sometimes I can’t stand to be in the moment because I know it will pass. I feel nostalgic about things I’m actively experiencing. Cherished ephemera is how I think of it – the beauty that can only be appreciated because it cannot stay.

  35. I love seeing the videos. I’ve watched the glitter girl photo shoot so many times and shared it with so many people. Everytime I hear the song “Brave” on the radio, I’m flooded with memories of her smile and her laugh. I love that that song is more than a song now, it’s a beautiful memory of a beautiful little girl. Thank you for sharing her with us and bringing me into your world. I think about her all the time and am saddened by all of the children losing their lives to DIPG. Hopefully someday there will be a cure to this horrible disease.

  36. Father in heaven I pray for Libby and her family, that you may lift them in their darkest time and bring healing and understanding. That you may light their path with Jennifers spirit and her light that shines so bright today and forever, and that they may be lifted above the darkness so they may follow. May she bring love and guidance as an angel as she did in body and soul and as she had once lead and guided as big sisters do, delighting their hearts through her joy and play. May they celebrate her life by living and may you carry their pain. In Jesus name Amen

  37. The glitter shoot is so so precious. What an amazingly precocious and giggly little girl she was! such light in her eyes when she looked at her momma-she LOVES (not loved) you so much, Libby, don’t forget that. And the “Brave” lyrics I think could become your anthem as well…just a thought I had the other day. We’ve had that song on repeat since her memorial and it is an amazing song. Constantly thinking and praying for you all.

  38. Libby, I have been following your blog for months but have never replied because I can never find the words. I still can’t find the words…only to let you know that I watch Jennifer’s videos and I cry. I pray God gives you whatever comfort he can. I want you to know that Jennifer’s story has taught me to see the beauty in my children every moment I am with them…not just fleeting moments now and then as I did before. I always love them with all my being, but now I do not take one moment for granted. We have 3 young children with one on the way, and things can get pretty stressful..but I am not complaining. only to tell you your blog brings me saddness, but also gives me so much gratitude. I just wanted you to know that Jennifer has touched our lives.

  39. My daughter and I watched the glitter shoot today. so beautiful, so glad you have it.it was a joy to watch as well as bringing forth tears. All of your children are beautiful <3

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