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everything and nothing

I miss her today with all of me. I went for a run. It usually clears my head.. gives me space… But not today.  I am hurting. I remember so clearly 6 months ago. Calling my sister to tell her to come.. then not come.. then come. I wasn’t sure that we needed her… wasn’t really sure how close Jennifer was to her death. But I was afraid… so she came to us. Today I am angry. .. . at everything and at nothing. I remember thinking I could never hurt worse then I did right then. I remember thinking the same thing those first days after she died. Thinking I couldn’t ever hurt as much as I did then. I was wrong. So incredibly wrong. I thought the same today. I thought I could never hurt worse than I am now. And as soon as I thought it, I[…]