Tag: cross fit

meant to be

**As I was typing the last word in this entry this song started playing.. Open it in another window as you read this.. Because I think she wants me to share her message to me, with you..** ok buggers. ok baby.. ok.. i love you. i love you. i love you I was talking with a friend today.. a new friend from my new life. My AD life.. This friends job is to fundraise for researchers.. well kinda. Her goal is really to raise money to save kids. To stop them from suffering.. from dying. . Its a big deal. It matters and it can be all consuming. The pressure can be overwhelming at times. I get it. So much. .. except I don’t. .. She asked how I dealt with it. Since we are so similar. How do I cope with that anxiety and pressure. The need to do[…]

deserve it

This morning I was driving to the gym. I crossed over the intersection I turned on daily to take Jennifer to school. It hit me.. in just a little bit I will be making that drive again… this time for Jonathan. And it was like a jolted me. This time I have left with all my living babies at home with me more often than not is coming to a close. Forever. I already know how hard it was to deal with the first time around.. how much I missed Jennifer.. how much I longed to just have her home with me. I cannot even imagine how hard its going to be this time around. I started to feel an immense guilt for taking all the time away from this once in a lifetime gift of time I am having to go to the gym.. or run Unravel. I found[…]

matters

Sometimes I am so incredibly humbled by this community. Leaving our house this morning we all get buckled in then look up at our front door and noticed. WE GOT FLITTERED! It was so exciting for us to see all of the Unravel paper dragonflies flittering around our front door. Loving and protecting our home. We all got unbuckled to look closely.. and of course for Mom to take some pictures!   This evening we went to 7652 Monterey street here in town.  Its actually a local church.. and I got to shake the pastors hand. A place that opened their doors with their new flooring and freshly painted walls to us for our rummage sale fundraiser. So just driving there I was touched by their generosity in action to allow us to use their facilities without asking for anything in return. When I talked to my boys about it driving there,[…]